Familiarity x2

It’s only on nights like these that I thoroughly miss you with every inch of my being. Because I know that if it would have been you I called, you would have instantly known that “tone.” You wouldn’t have mistook it for anger. You wouldn’t have associated it back to you. You would have known that I was sad. You would have known that I had a bad day. You would have understood that the last thing I wanted or needed, was pettiness. You would have done anything in your power to make me laugh so I could leave that conversation with a smile.

That’s what makes familiarity so comfortable.. We’re already there. We’ve learned the ins and outs of each other. There’s no work, it’s so effortless. That’s what makes this so hard. That’s what makes getting to know someone new so difficult. And it’s why I haven’t really tried in two years.

Maybe I’m really just not ready for this.

2 years ago on February 27, 2011 at 11:11pm