Vermont is so GREEN. #albanytoburlington #drive #roadtrip #eastcoast #hot #humid #burlington #vermont #beautiful #adventure #exploring

The best part about this failed trip, so far, is all the crazy, wonderful, interesting people we’ve met and talked to. People coming, and going, sharing a split-moment together or six hours in a Denny’s restaurant, waiting for a rebooked flight, or sharing an outlet just to make one call on an extremely dead cell phone at 2AM, haha! Very cool. Third time’s the charm? Tonight, we try to fly out of PDX. #seatac #sea #seattle #tacoma #pdx #portland #pnw #pacificnorthwest #northwest #northwestisbest #upperleftusa #airport #airplane #planes #sundown #sunset #jfkorbust #ny #nyc #newyork #fail #travel #adventure #explore #exploring #jetsetter #nofilter

My flight got canceled yesterday, but the crazy part about it is that now I get to fly out of Seattle with my little sister that I haven’t seen since I was 14! So if this looks like the face of someone that’s been sitting around the airport for 6 hours with 4 1/2hrs left to go, that’s ok. Everything happens for a reason. I’m so nervous and excited to meet her, I’m nauseous! Lol! #adopted #adoption #reunited #reunion #airport #worththewait #seatac #seattle #tacoma #pnw #pacificnorthwest #northwest #northwestisbest #flying #airplane #planes #jfk #newyork #nyc #ny #newyorkorbust #vacation #adventure #exploring #happy #lifeiscrazy

I wanna play. (: #favoritelooklately #simple #comfy #happy #content #me #selfie #nofilter #makeup #summer #gladtodayisover #workhardplayharder #hewantsme #canthaveme #haha #single #oregongirl

#nofilter #summer #bee #cutie #wildflowers #oregon #exploregon #pnw #pacificnorthwest #northwest #northwestisbest #upperleftusa #columbiagorge #seaside #pretty

Ah, young love<3 #beach #seaside #oregon #exploregon #pnw #pacificnorthwest #northwest #northwestisbest #upperleftusa #ocean #pacificocean #vacation #younglove #puppylove #favorite #picture #lovethem #cuties

#summer #nofilter #seaside #oregon #pacificnorthwest #pnw #northwest #northwestisbest #ocean #beach #sanddollar #exploring #exploregon #vacation #upperleftusa #whatevs

#summer #nofilter #oregon #seaside #columbiagorge #pnw #pacificnorthwest #northwestisbest #upperleftusa

Your heart’s broken but your whole body hurts. Then you get into bed at night, thankful to be back in a safe haven under the covers where you can cry alone and not be judged for being so weak to another human being, when all of our lives we are taught to be independent. And after a silent moment in the dark, you swear that your heart is completely crushed and it just can’t hurt anymore, so you fall asleep praying to God that you don’t dream of them for another night in a row. Then you wake up the next morning with, somehow, a whole heart again but like clockwork, the cycle starts over and the pieces begin to fall.

Kate Dillen, Different Hearts, Same Heartbreak  (via perfect)

Just like that

(via peanutbutterjay) Whoa. Too relevant.

(via peanutbutterjay)

#numb #ithurts #sobadly #thethingswedo #tobepretty #ugh #caribbeanrum #parrotbay #captainmorgan #passionfruit #fuckthis

He was in a town twenty minutes away. For work. As opposed to the hour and a half he usually is. On the first night, he asked if I wanted to hang out. I wouldn’t have gotten there until late. My work is forty minutes from my house, it would have been well after eleven and he gets up early. I said no.

On Wednesday, I drove out to see him. I picked him up and drove him the hour to see his daughter on her birthday.

We went to the adult shop. Then back to the motel.

I gave him a back massage while he watched whatever mundane thing was on television. I don’t watch TV. But even if I did, it wouldn’t have been that terrible Pawn Stars show.

I put my pajamas on.

We cuddled.

He does this thing where he intertwines our legs, and I love it, and I hate it.

He kept running his fingers down the length of my back, barely brushing the skin. I’m incredibly ticklish and it made me convulse each time, involuntarily arching my back and pressing against him.

He kissed me. A lot.

Bit my neck.

Tried to slip a hand down my pants.

I said no. Nuh-uh. Not tonight. Not yet.

"I’m a nice girl.”

And that was okay.

But he grew hard against me anyway. And I gave in, and I took him in my mouth, and he gathered my hair into a ponytail in his hands and watched me give him head, and his hips would rise and fall, and occasionally he’d moan.

I let him cum in my mouth.

I swallowed.

And then he intertwined our legs again, wrapped an arm around me, and fell asleep.

In the morning I was embarrassed, as my hair was disheveled and unruly, and my makeup had been wiped away, but we talked, and he asked if I wanted breakfast, and I said no.

We both had to work. He asked if I’d come back that night. I said maybe. He said he was going to give me his room key, but that it cost $5 so he wouldn’t on a “maybe.”

I said that was a risk he’d have to take.

He gave me the room key.

I made him wait. Let him wonder if I’d show up.

I did.

He bought me dinner.

And desert.

We went back to the motel.

He passed out.

I untangled my limbs from his to change clothes. When I came back to bed, he rolled over, away from me. I tried to sleep.

But I couldn’t. He had all the blankets. And it was cold.

I climbed out of bed, crawled into the empty bed, and fell asleep.

He was up before me the next morning.

I got up, went out to the car to grab my toothbrush. I brushed my teeth. He sat in the chair on his phone. When I was finished I sat back on the bed. He continued to play with his phone.

I gathered my things.

He went out to smoke.

“I think I’m going to go.”

“Alright. I’ll see you later.

“See ya around.”

And then….

Nothing.

Not on Friday.
Not on Saturday.

I messaged him on Sunday. He replied. He did not, however, reply to my reply. He talked to other people I know. Every day.

Nothing on Monday.

I deactivated my Facebook.

Why the fuck do I do this to myself?

I’m -10lbs from the last body pic I posted, and I’m happy to be losing weight in a healthy way, but I’m not excited that all of my new jeans are too big!

I was having one of those days where I wasn’t feeling very good about myself, but then a random woman, probably late forties, told me I was, “absolutely beautiful.” Then she turned to my resident, who I’m sure she thought was my grandma, and said, “she’s absolutely beautiful, and you probably think so, too.” My resident said, “Yeah, she’s very pretty,” and the woman goes, “No, she’s more than pretty, she’s #beautiful, and I don’t say that often.” Then she asked me how old I was because she has a son my age, lol. But that all lead me to think about how quickly you can turn someone’s day around with something as simple as a #kindword or a smile. Women are #catty because we compete, but there’s #strength in being the kind of woman that’s #confident enough to give a compliment. So, #ladies, I’m challenging you to pay a compliment to another woman today. Maybe someone you wouldn’t normally give any mind to. And then see how it makes you feel afterward, and hope that might give someone else the #courage to spread a kind word themselves. #girlpower #kindness #love #loveyourself #respect #me #selfie #makeup #redlips #oregongirl #goodvibes #atpeace (;

Thank goodness I did all the grocery shopping after work last night - this is how my resident filled the cart today, lol. Cute shoes, huh? (; #work #workflow #candy #shopping #heartattackcentral #omg #lol #toofunny #whatevs

Day one of the #Insanity workout yesterday has made #work the worst place in existence today, lol. So sore! I love it!! #insanityworkout #workout #getfit #dayone #daytwotonight #workflow #sore #dying #oldpeople #lol